Feeling overwhelmed with emotion

Today Eliza is 27 weeks along. That means there are only 9 weeks to go until the girls are here. Eliza is applying for jobs here in the valley and wants to move down here so she can have more job opportunities, be closer for doctor appointments and also be closer to us and the girls. She drove down Sunday night and left this morning and I really enjoyed our time with her. I love getting to know her more.

I felt absolutely terrible when she left today because she didn't find a job that really met her needs yet and I saw the defeat on her face as she drove back up to her hometown to work. I know that she will find something here and that it will all work out, I just wish I could take some of the stress and concern from her. I really hope she finds something soon down here so she can move down here. I miss her already and she has only been gone a couple of hours!

I am sitting here at work unable to concentrate. I have been pondering gifts that I want to get for her and every time I think about what she is doing and how she is changing our lives, I catch myself crying. Being a prospective adoptive parent is emotional and I care about Eliza so much that it is hard for me to think of my happiness and joy when it is shadowed in her sacrifice and pain.

All I can do is hope that our open, close relationship and her ability to be a part of the girls' lives will ease some of her pain over time.

Please send her positive thoughts and prayers - we all know they work!